This is my journey to strengthening my relationship with Jesus Christ & to discover the true purpose of my life.
According to my Mother, I have always been a spiritual person. However, when I look back in my life, I didn’t follow God’s word. A few years ago, I had an eye opening experience that lead me on this path to grow closer to Jesus. During this time, I went through a traumatic divorce. I felt like I lost the respect of my son & daughter. I lost my career. I lost most of my materialistic, worldly items. BUT GOD! I didn’t lose Jesus. I actually found Him. I found the person that had always been there for me.
In the past 5 years, I have been healed from so many things when I gave my life to Jesus. He blessed me with a husband I never thought I would deserve. My kids tell & show me that the love & respect me. I was giving the responsibility of helping raise 2 beautiful daughters. Plus, I was blessed in so many other ways, as well.
In the midst of my blessings, I have been tested & attacked. These things have weakened & distracted me from my relationship with Christ. I have been backsliding in my relationship with God, almost to the point of being double minded. For 3 years I have heard that I must write. This confused me so much because I did/do not know what to write. So I put it off, I procrastinated, I just ignored what I heard from God. I would create FB pages & write what I believed He wanted me to write but it still didn’t feel like I was listening to God. This blog feels right. I have prayed about it. I have given it to God. So we will see what He allows me to share on this journey.
Enjoy my journey with me!!!
I will always remember 9-11-2001 as the day I felt the most prejudice in my life. I was sitting at my desk at A & P (I cannot remember if it was still BellSouth or if it was AT&T) watching it happen with my coworkers. I was terrified inside. Greg was 2 years old. He was at his daycare in Clarkston, Ga. Clarkston is known for being a welcoming city of immigrants. You can drive down one street and see every ethnicity and nationality walking around. That is why I loved Clarkston and eventually brought my 1st home there.
On 9-11, I was terrified. What if something else happened…? There was a lot of speculation concerning who was responsible for the attack. As I sat at my desk, not being able to leave, I became more worried. I thought about every time I saw someone walking that looked Muslim, Middle Eastern, or from that area. I remembered that for the past few months a man had been walking around with a red and white head covering on. I remembered there was a restaurant that was frequented by Middle Eastern people in the same plaza as the daycare. I allowed my brain to convince myself that Greg was in danger just because ”those people” lived in Clarkston. It wasn’t based on facts or true reality. It was based on fear.
Over the next couple of weeks, my fear subsided. I actually started worrying about the elderly gentleman with the head-covering. I never saw a man wearing his head-covering walking the streets again for years. I prayed that he was safe and not living in fear. I started seeing the people of the restaurant on the news and they seemed like normal people worried about our country also. I believe it took a moment for that population of people to start feeling safe in their country again after 9-11.
Fear can mess with your mind if you allow it to take over your thoughts. I pray for all of the people affected by the attacks on 9-11-2001. The events of this day had far-reaching hands. It changed the way we lived in this world. I learned from my reaction to this day. I pray other people did as well. I pray that no one reading this is living with fear in their hearts & minds that was created because of the differences of people.
Lord, I come to You today thanking You for being the king of kings and the lord of lords. I thank You for always being here for me when I need You.
I have so many friends that are not feeling well right now. I have friends that are in the hospital. I have friends that just got out of the hospital. I have friends that are scheduling hospital visits and doctor’s appointments for serious illnesses. Father, I ask You to step in an protect each one of these people. Please let Your presence be felt during every procedure or appointment that they go through.
God, please heal every person that reads this prayer. I also would like for each person to start living a healthier life. This goes for myself as well. That we become people that are healthy and strong. We eat, exercise and live a life that will cancel out premature death. Please pass these habits down to our children, our children’s children, and every descendant that is in our bloodlines. Please eradicate anything that is causing premature death in this world.
Allow us all to recognize the authority that we have over these issues in our lives and let us use the power that has been given to us to become the people that You created us to be. I know we have so much more in us that we do not realize or acknowledge. Thank you for giving me these words to pray to You when I was lost. I know that we all are healed by the stripes of Jesus Christ. I decree and declare healing for us all. In Jesus’ holy name, amen.
I wasn’t alright around 3:50 this morning. My allergies have been a little crazy this week. When I went to sleep, I had a tickle in my throat. I woke up to use the restroom and the tickle was still there. Anxiety tried to step in. It gets pretty rough sometimes. I am dealing with restless leg syndrome. That is like my feet will not stop moving. With that and the throat, I started losing it a little bit.
I made a timely mistake. I gave my symptoms more attention than they deserved. I started googling about corona and my throat. I took some elderberry syrup and then gargled with peroxide. I tried to go to sleep but I just couldn’t. My mind wouldn’t calm down. My feet wouldn’t stop moving. I started praying. I started crying and asking Jesus to help me go to sleep. I wanted to be at peace. I opened my Bible app and read one of my plans that I am reading at the moment. I was given this scripture, cast your cares on the Lord and He will sustain you. I started repeating to myself, I cast all my anxieties to you Father. I am healthy and I am healed. I was able to go to sleep. When I woke up this morning, the tickle is gone.
Our minds can be our worse enemy sometimes. Not going to the Lord first was my mistake but when I did, He took care of all of my worries. We are allowed these little slip ups but they shouldn’t become our everyday. Jesus wants us to come to Him first. He wants us to seek Him out and receive our healing. I am glad I sought Him out last night. My mind and paranoid thoughts were in charge until I relinquished control to Jesus. Lesson learned, I hope it sticks this time.