I wasn’t alright around 3:50 this morning. My allergies have been a little crazy this week. When I went to sleep, I had a tickle in my throat. I woke up to use the restroom and the tickle was still there. Anxiety tried to step in. It gets pretty rough sometimes. I am dealing with restless leg syndrome. That is like my feet will not stop moving. With that and the throat, I started losing it a little bit.
I made a timely mistake. I gave my symptoms more attention than they deserved. I started googling about corona and my throat. I took some elderberry syrup and then gargled with peroxide. I tried to go to sleep but I just couldn’t. My mind wouldn’t calm down. My feet wouldn’t stop moving. I started praying. I started crying and asking Jesus to help me go to sleep. I wanted to be at peace. I opened my Bible app and read one of my plans that I am reading at the moment. I was given this scripture, cast your cares on the Lord and He will sustain you. I started repeating to myself, I cast all my anxieties to you Father. I am healthy and I am healed. I was able to go to sleep. When I woke up this morning, the tickle is gone.
Our minds can be our worse enemy sometimes. Not going to the Lord first was my mistake but when I did, He took care of all of my worries. We are allowed these little slip ups but they shouldn’t become our everyday. Jesus wants us to come to Him first. He wants us to seek Him out and receive our healing. I am glad I sought Him out last night. My mind and paranoid thoughts were in charge until I relinquished control to Jesus. Lesson learned, I hope it sticks this time.
In this time, I believe people are holding in their problems, anxiety, depressed thoughts because so much is happening in the world. Some of us are believing what we are going through is petty. That it isn’t major compared to others losing their lives. However, I believe we all should express what we are going through freely without fear of what other people will think of us. We all have different levels of issues and problems. All of these situations are important to the individual that is dealing with it. We shouldn’t make them feel less than. We are in this together!
Anything that’s creating fear, anxiety, depression or confusion needs to be discussed and released. I pray each of you has someone that you feel comfortable to speak to in this time about your honest thoughts, feelings, and emotions during this time. I pray for everyone’s mental health to be stable and truly healthy when we come through this season. Jesus is a great listener. He has also assigned some wonderful people to be great listeners also. He did this because He doesn’t want us to be alone. Jesus knows we need community. Once again and I mean this every time I say it, I love you, guys. Please be safe. Use the common sense that God gave each and every one of us. Stay in the word. Stay prayed up.
In 2014 & 2015, I had quite a few apocalyptic dreams. I had dreams of a plane crashing down and destroying a church. I remember a dream about me driving with my family on Lavista Rd and huge fireballs were falling from the sky. The very worst dream was that we were being attacked and my children were at school. Greg was going to school in Chamblee and Angelia was going to school in Scottdale. In the dream, I had to choose who to pick up 1st. I could never pick. It was the worse dream ever. I would just stand in the dream and cry.
In this time of quarantine, God made sure my silver lining was clear. I didn’t have to choose between my kids. Both of them are still living with me and at home. It is a blessing!!! I know God is still in the midst during these crazy times. I just have to make sure I keep in close contact with Him and everything is going to be alright.