I wasn’t alright around 3:50 this morning. My allergies have been a little crazy this week. When I went to sleep, I had a tickle in my throat. I woke up to use the restroom and the tickle was still there. Anxiety tried to step in. It gets pretty rough sometimes. I am dealing with restless leg syndrome. That is like my feet will not stop moving. With that and the throat, I started losing it a little bit.
I made a timely mistake. I gave my symptoms more attention than they deserved. I started googling about corona and my throat. I took some elderberry syrup and then gargled with peroxide. I tried to go to sleep but I just couldn’t. My mind wouldn’t calm down. My feet wouldn’t stop moving. I started praying. I started crying and asking Jesus to help me go to sleep. I wanted to be at peace. I opened my Bible app and read one of my plans that I am reading at the moment. I was given this scripture, cast your cares on the Lord and He will sustain you. I started repeating to myself, I cast all my anxieties to you Father. I am healthy and I am healed. I was able to go to sleep. When I woke up this morning, the tickle is gone.
Our minds can be our worse enemy sometimes. Not going to the Lord first was my mistake but when I did, He took care of all of my worries. We are allowed these little slip ups but they shouldn’t become our everyday. Jesus wants us to come to Him first. He wants us to seek Him out and receive our healing. I am glad I sought Him out last night. My mind and paranoid thoughts were in charge until I relinquished control to Jesus. Lesson learned, I hope it sticks this time.
This is my journey to strengthening my relationship with Jesus Christ & to discover the true purpose of my life.
According to my Mother, I have always been a spiritual person. However, when I look back in my life, I didn’t follow God’s word. A few years ago, I had an eye opening experience that lead me on this path to grow closer to Jesus. During this time, I went through a traumatic divorce. I felt like I lost the respect of my son & daughter. I lost my career. I lost most of my materialistic, worldly items. BUT GOD! I didn’t lose Jesus. I actually found Him. I found the person that had always been there for me.
In the past 5 years, I have been healed from so many things when I gave my life to Jesus. He blessed me with a husband I never thought I would deserve. My kids tell & show me that the love & respect me. I was giving the responsibility of helping raise 2 beautiful daughters. Plus, I was blessed in so many other ways, as well.
In the midst of my blessings, I have been tested & attacked. These things have weakened & distracted me from my relationship with Christ. I have been backsliding in my relationship with God, almost to the point of being double minded. For 3 years I have heard that I must write. This confused me so much because I did/do not know what to write. So I put it off, I procrastinated, I just ignored what I heard from God. I would create FB pages & write what I believed He wanted me to write but it still didn’t feel like I was listening to God. This blog feels right. I have prayed about it. I have given it to God. So we will see what He allows me to share on this journey.
Enjoy my journey with me!!!
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