Pastor Johnson Bowie’s (Pastor of Victory World Church, Hamilton Mill) message on Saturday, hit home. It was about the crazy love of God. He touched on so many points that I needed to hear. Pastor’s sermon reminded me why my relationship with God fall apart, again. Why I broke up with Jesus? Also, why the relationship is still not repaired, after 2 years of believing I was trying to place God 1st in my life. I was still trying to be in control, instead of turning the reins over to God. His message piggybacked on a FB Live that I watched this week from Pastor Mike, Lady Felecia, & Allyson (Community Church of God, Atlanta). Their conversation was about forgiveness. During their FB Live, I was reminded that I was still mad at God for allowing so many bad things to happen to me. I was angry about my test, trials & tribulations. This is crazy because I know those things are allowed for us to learn from them, not to hurt us or discipline us. I allowed the anger & pain to overrule me. I have asked the Lord for forgiveness for being angry at Him. I additionally have forgiven myself for falling into the devil’s trap of anger & unforgivingness. I am now in the process of correcting my behavior, reconstructing my thought process and not allowing my flesh to control me.

I feel like improving how I handle my emotions will help me out, a lot. I tend to be a VERY emotion driven person. That has to change. Once I stop allowing my emotions to control me, my life will change for the better, not just for me but for my entire family. I am looking forward to being able to manage my level of offense, governing rather I allow someone to offend me or not. This may seem ridiculous to some but it is actually a challenge for me not to be offended. I allow myself to get insulted too easily. My level of clarity & discernment will increase. I will recognize that I have the power to be able to defend myself from the attacks or ignore the attacks, completely. It is my responsibility to choose how I respond to others. I do not have to respond to everyone or everything. I am going to decide the amount of power I give to others. I have made the decision not to give ANY power to people who are working against me or my family. I know controlling my emotions will help me with my relationships with my family & friends. With my discernment, I will be able to see who the true enemy is in my life.

These changes are going against what my flesh is telling me to do. However, I know they are needed because I am tired of being an angry person. I am determined to stop taking everything so personally. Anger may not shorten your life but it decreases your chances of experiencing God’s true joy in your life. I enjoy living a life filled with joy & happiness. That doesn’t come easily when you are mad all the time.

Shelley Wesley

Morning Guilt

It has been said in every church I have ever attended, you have to wake up and give your 1st moments of the day to God.

I am guilty of not doing this all the time. It has become difficult these past couple of years. I have been dealing with flare ups from Fibromyalgia. I never know if I am going to wake up in pain or not. I have allowed my pain level to decide what my mood is going to be for the day. This practice has led me to thinking about my aches & pains, instead of praying & reading my Bible or devotionals.

This week I have started to be intentional with waking up and talking to God. BUT! I have to stop picking up my phone 1st & checking the time. Once I pick the phone up, I see my notifications & go check my emails and whatever else is staring at me. I know I am not the only one that does this…. Lol. I have to do better. I am a work in progress but at least I am on the right path, again.

I know from experience when I talk to God 1st and read & share the word, my day is just better all around. I have to stop being distracted by the world. I have to dig in deeper.

Love ya,

Shelley Wesley


The greatest influencer of this world is Jesus Christ and we are His children. How are we using our influence?

Are we using our influence to follow God’s word or to follow social media? Are we more concerned about creating our own followers or followers of Jesus?

So many questions…..

What are your answers?