MY KIDS. I only gave birth to 2 of these 9 kids but I love each of them so much. They motivate me to be the very best person and role model, I can be. I know I come short sometimes but they all show me grace.
Greg was my 1st born. You have a special place in my heart because we have went through so much together & are still standing strong together. Stan & Nene came next by marriage. We have had our challenges but I hope both of you know, I will have your backs until I take my last breath. Kierra Simone is my 1st born niece. This little lady is so beautiful inside and out. I cannot help to smile when I am around you. Angelia Marie, you are my babygirl, my quiet one. You may not say a lot but your beautiful spirit speaks volumes. Mr. James Ware, you are the kids cousin but you feel more like my son. It has been a honor to watch you grow and mature into the young man & soldier, you are today. Little Kori, you & I have had our battles with our personalities clashing but I wouldn’t change anything. I love the strong minded, not taking any nonsense young lady you have become. Lil’ Kobie, the youngest of my crew, watching how you take care of your sisters, especially you new baby sister, Magical, is a sight to behold. You are going to be the protector of the family when you get older. I cannot wait to see it. Last but not least, Gabby & Elizabeth, you 2 are my newest babies. You both are each unique and special in your own ways. I know you always have to deal with people calling you twins but know I see the wonderful individual in each of you.
I pray for each of these children like I gave birth to them. They motivate me to stay in prayer, for good situations and some times bad stuff, also. I am so blessed to have each of you in my life. I am grateful to the parents of the ones that I didn’t birth for trusting in me to be a good person to have in your children’s lives. I am throughly grateful and appreciative of having these beautiful souls in my life. Thank you, Jesus!!!
Magical, I don’t have a picture of you but one day I would love to become your Auntie, also.
Charles & I both went through divorces that we did not want or desire. We understood the value of family and we didn’t want our families to be broken, so we fought for those marriages. That was not the right reason to delay the divorces. God believes in marriage but if He isn’t in them, I believe He will release you from the marriage. Especially, if He wasn’t the creator of it.
We now look at our marriage in a different light. God placed us together. We know without a shadow of a doubt, that God made us for each other. We were just both living in our own will and not paying attention to the Lord, when it came to the relationships in our lives before June 25, 2016. Having gone to high school together, on that day, we remet. The two of us were on our individual walks with the Lord at the time. We were getting to know who we were with Christ as our Lord & Savior.
Charles had written down what he wanted in a wife & I had prayed for my husband. To be completely transparent, I started out praying for my ex-husband. I was confused into thinking restoration was the answer. When Jesus started showing me who I was in Him, I started learning my worth & value. Due to the past hurts that I had experienced, I didn’t know my value or my worth. The Father made it crystal clear, that going backward was not in His plan for my life. I actually saw Charles standing in front of me in a dream once but I didn’t remember him from school at the time. Who would have believed, God showed me my husband in a dream?
Once I accepted that there was no going back, I started praying for God’s will to take place in my life. I started praying to be a living testimony for Jesus Christ. Boy, did He make that happen and happen fast. Once Charles and I started talking on June 25th, we haven’t stopped talking to one another. We were married on October 6, 2016. Some may say it was quick but we say it wasn’t because it was in God’s timing not out own.
Since that day, we have stated, this marriage is our forever marriage. Our church believes in marriages, strong marriages. We have attended pre-married life, marriage conferences, and classes at our church. During one of the conferences, it was said that for couples to maintain a good marriage, the first thing that needed to happen was to take divorce off the table. We agreed that neither one of us wanted to think about divorce again. So, we took it off the table. Since it isn’t an option in our marriage, it has made life a little harder. We actually have to work in this marriage. There is no easy way out for us!
We made a deal with each other that we would invest in our marriage. Our church has Married Life ministry, it is a ministry dedicated to marriage. The leaders are couples that are married with Jesus as the foundation & third strand in their covenant. They are not perfect but you know that upfront and it actually is nice to see real marriages work out real issues. We attend classes every year. This year we are actually taking a 2nd class. We also pray and read the Bible & devotionals together. Sometimes we slack when it comes to praying & reading but we eventually get our act together and do what we have to do to keep our marriage thriving not dying.
Working on our marriage is actually helping us stay in love. We are learning how to communicate in a healthy way. We still argue but we are able to recognize what we are doing wrong, figure out how to make things right and try our best not to let it happen again. Charles & I try our best not to allow any discussion or argument to be carried over to the next day. Our love grows when it isn’t torn down by nasty names and hateful words. We are not perfect but we are working on correcting what is wrong in our union. We have promised to continue to invest in our marriage for the rest of our lives.
DIVORCE IS OFF THE TABLE!!!
My mother says that I have always been spiritual. However, it wasn’t until I allowed myself to get connected to my spiritual family, that I really understood what being spiritual really meant to me. Our #1 priority is knowing & having a relationship with Jesus but He also wants us to have a relationship with our brothers and sisters in Christ.
I would like to thank my spiritual family for always motivating me to learn and grow. It started out with the leaders and members of Community Church of God & now includes the leaders and members of Victory World Church, plus members of my friends & family that are spirit led, also. I am blessed to have such a diverse spiritual family. I have learned and I continue to learn so much from my family. They even help me when I am having mental & spiritual breakdowns.
I am so appreciative of each Spiritual mother, father, sister, & brother that I have been blessed with in my life. I pray God blesses each of you abundantly and places giant warring angels around your entire family and your homes. I love you all!!!
Have you ever had a moment when you know you clearly disappointed God? I had one of those moments, recently. He told me how to behave and react and I didn’t listen to Him. My flesh is my worse enemy. I do not know how to quiet it down. It amazes me that I have such faith in God but I still stumble in moments when He has told me to be quiet.
However, I am blessed because my God is a forgiver. He knows my heart. He knows my spirit. One day I will give full control of my tongue to Jesus. I pray it is soon. My tongue has a habit of giving other people power and being used against me. It is time for that to end. I have had too many practice test, to fail the final exam. I know there are life and death in the tongue. I only want my tongue to speak life.