Hate is a strong word to me. I don’t use it a lot but when I do, it is typically because a person has treated me with extreme hostility or dislike. I have had moments when I have felt hate towards others. However, those moments were short-lived. I do my best to recognize when I am having those moments and I change my way of thinking. I have witnessed what happens to people if they allow hate to live in their hearts. I never want to be one of those people.
Hate takes too much time, too much planning!!! I am a spontaneous lady! I like to see how people treat me before I decide if I am going to respect them or not. That is the realm I live in. You really shouldn’t concern yourself with rather or not I hate you. Your question should be, does Shelley respect me? I really put a lot of weight into RESPECT. Respect means so much to me. I guess it is based on the fact that I feel like liking someone can be faked. Respect is different. Either someone respects you or they don’t. You can be cordial to a person that you do not respect but your mannerisms are different. Your facial expressions or the way you speak is different. When you have respect for someone, you can see it, hear it, shoot you can even feel it. Genuine respect is amazing.
I can dislike you but still respect you as a human being but if I don’t respect you, you will never experience the true Shelley. You will only get Michelle and she is cool person but not as fun-loving and happy as Shelley. Michelle will be nice to you but do her best to get away from you as soon as she can.
Do I hate anyone? No. However, there are a lot of people that I do not respect.
My marriage is a typical marriage. We go through our highs and or lows, especially since we are a blended family. However, it is my responsibility as the wife, 2nd in charge, the Queen to uplift my King. This husband of mine is truly a man of God. He couldn’t make it out to the OneRace prayer meeting last night because he was sick. This morning our dog woke him up early and Charles made the decision to go to prayer and the Men’s breakfast at church. He could have just laid back down but I know he was convicted by the Lord to go be with like-minded men.
Ladies these men exist, good God fearing men, praying men. They are out there if you want them but you are not supposed to pursue them. They are meant to be the pursuer. Even my shy, timid husband pursued me. When he is the right one and in God’s timing, everything will just click. It may not be perfect but God’s Grace will shine a light on the relationship and be there to defend it and you both against every attack of the enemy, even when one of you maybe the enemy within. God’s timing, blessed me with the husband I was made for, stop rushing the process or you might end up with more frogs instead of your KING!!! You king is out there looking for you, praying for you. Are you praying for him?
I haven’t written anything in a while because I have been in a state of confusion. My purpose wasn’t clear to me. I was hearing things but questioning if I was the right person for the job.
Today, I recognize that even though I am a little weird and crazy, I am definitely the right person. I just need to stay on this path and allow God to lead me. I need to stop trying to be in charge of my life & give control to Him. Giving up control may be hard for me but it is something I need to do.
Strong minded, Alpha woman, Leo, for whatever reason, I have always had issues with relinquishing my control or power to someone else. It may come from having trust issues, I am not sure but I have to grow and change that aspect of my personality. It is holding me back from being the Shelley that I am supposed to be, that God created me to be.