Depression & anxiety is real. I allowed them to control me for the past couple of years. Control me to the point that I have gained more weight than I have ever had before. Control me to the point that I pushed everyone away. Control me to the point that I really didn’t love myself.
Jesus had to remind me today who I am in Him. He has been telling me, all this time, but I haven’t paid attention to Him. I haven’t been listening. I have let confusion into my mind, soul, & spirit. I’ve been worrying about the lies that humans have been saying about me. I end that TODAY. I am allowing God to take over in my life. I know who I was created to be. I know that I am not a person that would do any of these acts that I have been accused of doing. I know the lies are not stronger than THE TRUTH!!! I know who I am in Jesus. My family, loved ones & friends know who I am, also. I actually was worried about the opinions of people I don’t even know. How ridiculous is that?
I allowed the lies and actions of others to control my emotions and thoughts. I became angry at everyone. I gave power to the enemy and his minions. NOT ANYMORE!!!
I am giving my free will over to God. I am here to serve Him, not myself. I refuse to be a self – serving person any longer. I love who God made in me. I am not going to allowing anyone else opinion trump God’s, my husband’s, my family or friends’ opinion of me. I am especially not going to let their opinion of me, have more power over my life than my personal opinion concerning me.
I KNOW WHO I AM!!!!
Michelle Wesley
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Author: myspiritualjourney
This is my journey to strengthening my relationship with Jesus Christ & to discover the true purpose of my life.
According to my Mother, I have always been a spiritual person. However, when I look back in my life, I didn’t follow God’s word. A few years ago, I had an eye opening experience that lead me on this path to grow closer to Jesus. During this time, I went through a traumatic divorce. I felt like I lost the respect of my son & daughter. I lost my career. I lost most of my materialistic, worldly items. BUT GOD! I didn’t lose Jesus. I actually found Him. I found the person that had always been there for me.
In the past 5 years, I have been healed from so many things when I gave my life to Jesus. He blessed me with a husband I never thought I would deserve. My kids tell & show me that the love & respect me. I was giving the responsibility of helping raise 2 beautiful daughters. Plus, I was blessed in so many other ways, as well.
In the midst of my blessings, I have been tested & attacked. These things have weakened & distracted me from my relationship with Christ. I have been backsliding in my relationship with God, almost to the point of being double minded. For 3 years I have heard that I must write. This confused me so much because I did/do not know what to write. So I put it off, I procrastinated, I just ignored what I heard from God. I would create FB pages & write what I believed He wanted me to write but it still didn’t feel like I was listening to God. This blog feels right. I have prayed about it. I have given it to God. So we will see what He allows me to share on this journey.
Enjoy my journey with me!!!
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