Woman Down

I woke up to a migraine this morning. I have too many things to do. I cannot deal with this. One dark room, some medicine, & a cup of ginger turmeric tea. I pray this takes the pain away.

Fibromyalgia intensifies my pain. It always hurts or pinches a little harder. People don’t understand why I am put down by a simple migraine. Fibromyalgia makes the pains that would normally feel like a 10 for a regular person, feel like a 15 or a 20 for me. My nervous system is so heightened that when it senses pain, it goes crazy. I can feel the pain in multiple areas of my body not just the initial area that was hurting. The pain is in my head but it radiates to my lower extremities. I feel pinching and pulling in my arms, my legs and my feet. My hair actually feels like it hurts.

I am judged for so many things, like I am the weakest link of the world. It really bothers me so much sometimes. I am a very hard worker. I am known for my work ethic from former coworkers. I feel like a failure because I cannot deal with pain like other people. I know the stress from that isn’t helping me any. I need to learn not to stop allowing other people’s opinions about me to bother me. It is so hard to deal with people when they do not believe you about your condition. It hurts my heart that people who I love or once loved would believe I was lying or stretching the truth. Please believe, I want to be a normal healthy person that could build a piece of furniture from Ikea for her son & not be put down for the next day. That just isn’t my truth right now. It sucks!!!

I am supposed to be enjoying my life with my husband. I am supposed to be teaching and helping my kids. I want a pain free life. I have been told sugar isn’t helping my condition. I have been eating sugar or products with sugar in it, all of my life. I am addicted to sugar.

Next step on my journey, sugar detox……..

I trade heads with you.

Shelley Wesley

Author: myspiritualjourney

This is my journey to strengthening my relationship with Jesus Christ & to discover the true purpose of my life. According to my Mother, I have always been a spiritual person. However, when I look back in my life, I didn’t follow God’s word. A few years ago, I had an eye opening experience that lead me on this path to grow closer to Jesus. During this time, I went through a traumatic divorce. I felt like I lost the respect of my son & daughter. I lost my career. I lost most of my materialistic, worldly items. BUT GOD! I didn’t lose Jesus. I actually found Him. I found the person that had always been there for me. In the past 5 years, I have been healed from so many things when I gave my life to Jesus. He blessed me with a husband I never thought I would deserve. My kids tell & show me that the love & respect me. I was giving the responsibility of helping raise 2 beautiful daughters. Plus, I was blessed in so many other ways, as well. In the midst of my blessings, I have been tested & attacked. These things have weakened & distracted me from my relationship with Christ. I have been backsliding in my relationship with God, almost to the point of being double minded. For 3 years I have heard that I must write. This confused me so much because I did/do not know what to write. So I put it off, I procrastinated, I just ignored what I heard from God. I would create FB pages & write what I believed He wanted me to write but it still didn’t feel like I was listening to God. This blog feels right. I have prayed about it. I have given it to God. So we will see what He allows me to share on this journey. Enjoy my journey with me!!!

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