Blood Clot

I haven’t spoken to my Mother in a few months. We are both stubborn. I have been praying for my relationship with my Mom to get better. God always makes a way. I just wish it wasn’t this way. It is 4:30 in the morning & I am wide awake, sitting in a hospital room. I have to start listening better. God has to do some drastic things for me to actually see or listen to Him. I have to do better.

My Mom has a blood clot in her lungs. I am doing my very best to be positive and truly believe God’s hands are on my mother. I know she will be healed. The little girl, inside of me, is terrified. She is having trouble going to sleep now. I have silently prayed and prayed over her out loud.

I don’t know how to put this into words without sounding like I do not trust God but I haven’t had enough time with my Mom. I need her to be healed. I need her to walk out of this hospital and for us to have a better relationship. I am trusting in You Lord and expecting You to heal her in the name of Jesus.

I am not ready to say goodbye to my Mom.

Shelley Wesley

Author: myspiritualjourney

This is my journey to strengthening my relationship with Jesus Christ & to discover the true purpose of my life. According to my Mother, I have always been a spiritual person. However, when I look back in my life, I didn’t follow God’s word. A few years ago, I had an eye opening experience that lead me on this path to grow closer to Jesus. During this time, I went through a traumatic divorce. I felt like I lost the respect of my son & daughter. I lost my career. I lost most of my materialistic, worldly items. BUT GOD! I didn’t lose Jesus. I actually found Him. I found the person that had always been there for me. In the past 5 years, I have been healed from so many things when I gave my life to Jesus. He blessed me with a husband I never thought I would deserve. My kids tell & show me that the love & respect me. I was giving the responsibility of helping raise 2 beautiful daughters. Plus, I was blessed in so many other ways, as well. In the midst of my blessings, I have been tested & attacked. These things have weakened & distracted me from my relationship with Christ. I have been backsliding in my relationship with God, almost to the point of being double minded. For 3 years I have heard that I must write. This confused me so much because I did/do not know what to write. So I put it off, I procrastinated, I just ignored what I heard from God. I would create FB pages & write what I believed He wanted me to write but it still didn’t feel like I was listening to God. This blog feels right. I have prayed about it. I have given it to God. So we will see what He allows me to share on this journey. Enjoy my journey with me!!!

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